Grieving the living

Tonight I am drowning in the way I feel

I come up for clarity but the second emotion washes over me

I tumble around in my feelings knowing that I have lost control

It is one of those nights that I excuse myself and swim down to the deepest part of my heart

And think of you…

I think that I am protected by the darkness of the sea but the storm is raging up above

When I swim up back to reason, back to sanity

The waves won’t settle and I am stuck in this endless storm of grief